ijustneedanopenear's Blog

Hmm, it seems I wasn't all that chipper the other night at this time either.
I don't understand why I must feel this way.
I wan to forget.
I want it to all go away.
I can feel the depression coming on stronger....
I don't know why I get like this.
I seriously was fine. I've been happy with myself, even proud, and now all of a sudden I can't stand myself and feel suicidal.
I don't know what to do.
My heart is breaking from the constant changes...
I want to go home, but I feel like it will only get worse.
If I could just be home and talk to someone who knows me...
she's gone. The only girl who has ever known exactly what to say, who holds me, who makes me smile....
Why can't we just get along?
I need to tell her what I'm feeling, and I need her to tell me it's okay for me to feel that way.

I don't know you but I want you all the more for that
Words fall through me and always fool me and I can't react

And games that never amount to more than they're meant

Will play themselves out

 

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice

You've made it now

 

Falling slowly eyes that know me and I can't go back

Moods that take me and erase me and I'm painted black

You have suffered enough and warred with yourself

It's time that you won

 

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you had the choice

You've made it now

 

Falling slowly sing your melody

I'll sing along

I can't do lies anymore. I can't stand trying to open up. I can't stand anything. I am tired. I am defeated. I want to go home. I want to sleep forever... I can't do this.