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Hmm, it seems I wasn't all that chipper the other night at this time either.
I don't understand why I must feel this way.
I wan to forget.
I want it to all go away.
I can feel the depression coming on stronger....
I don't know why I get like this.
I seriously was fine. I've been happy with myself, even proud, and now all of a sudden I can't stand myself and feel suicidal.
I don't know what to do.
My heart is breaking from the constant changes...
I want to go home, but I feel like it will only get worse.
If I could just be home and talk to someone who knows me...
she's gone. The only girl who has ever known exactly what to say, who holds me, who makes me smile....
Why can't we just get along?
I need to tell her what I'm feeling, and I need her to tell me it's okay for me to feel that way.